Mourning


While talking to my best friend the other day about our physical handicaps, and how we have our poor me pity parties more than we like to admit, it dawned on me what we are actually feeling is a since of mourning. We watch folks in their late sixties and seventies walk effortlessly by while we are in a wheel chair or using a walker. We reminisced about a time not so long ago when we took our grandchildren to an amusement park and was able to walk up and down the hills, hike the trails, ride all the rides,including the monster roller coaster, and still have the energy for play time in the hotel pool that evening,

Yes we mourn those good old times, when our legs worked properly, without the pain we have when our feet hits the ground, and when we could walk more than a few steps and our backs didn’t ceasing up in pain. We miss going to the mall just to window shop, Going grocery shopping has always been a chore, however it never took everything thing out of us that we are physically ill by the time we get home.

I personally mourn the ability to lay on the floor. I have had many a good naps while laying on my stomach on the living room. I mourn the things I no longer can do with my husband, kids, and grandkids. At one time I was the cool grandma,the one that would play for hours with them. We would cook, scrapbook, fix our hair and make up, get manicures and pedicures. Now my grandkids are always asking are you ok grandma? Are you hurting? What can I do to help?

You know something I am lucky. I have so many wonderful memories with my family. Many people never have the opportunity to experience that. I now have the time to scrapbook those beautiful memories that I treasure. My son continues to send pictures of the grandkids in Georgia so I’m not missing out on what’s going on in their lives.

In the upcoming year both my friend and I have high hopes for a better quality of life. I will be heading back to the Mayo Clinic in January to finish the testings. They are confident they will get to the cause of my problems, and provide a treatment. My friend will be getting test done to hopefully get answered to her health issues.

We are tough old birds, that will not give up. We have far too many things to do and see. 2014 will be a great year for us. Watch out world who knows when Terri and Mary will be in your neck of the woods bringing all their love your way.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Babe's Place
    Dec 30, 2013 @ 01:01:11

    Reblogged this on Mary Barker.

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  2. Terri Sonoda
    Dec 30, 2013 @ 03:37:15

    I enjoyed this post very much, my friend. And you are so right when you say we are mourning. And 2014 IS going to be our year! I’m so happy you will be getting help through the Mayo Clinic. I have a lot of respect for that place for my own reasons. They will take good care of you, my dearest friend. Hopefully, we will get together for that long overdue glass of merlot soon. Love you!

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